I started the “You are Enough 30 day” blog
challenge and I now find myself having not much to say in the past four days.
So, in the hopes that I find my rhythm again, I decided to post snippets of the
last four days. The snippets are the beginnings of the posts intended for the
past four days which I found myself unable to complete.
Sometimes we get to a point in our life
where we are unable or fear to really look at ourselves in the mirror, really
look at the reflection and think about the past, present and future.
The topics from the past four days, for me,
weren’t easy ones and I couldn’t really grasp memories to reflect on. So, to
show you, that reflection isn’t always easy, here are the snippets I managed to
type…
Day 8: Unanswered prayer
Sometimes no answer is the best answer.
However, most times, when we don’t get an answer, we don’t like it, especially
when we want one from God. We often forget that God knows best even when we
don’t get the answer we want. God always gives us the answers we need.
I am a writer and every writer’s dream (I’m
sure) is to see their book on a shelf or in a reader’s hand. This is my dream
too. This is why I keep writing and helping others to keep writing so we can
all achieve our goal.
Rejection is a part of being a writer but
it’s never easy to accept. I have submitted a novel for publishing with hope
but I was rejected.
Day 9: The end
Relationships are not easy and can end in a
split second by a single word or action.
Day 10: Dark Depression
It feels like sitting in a dark room even
when the sun is shining through the windows. You can hear your heart beat like
it’s meant to be but it feels like it is silent. Your mind is filled with
wonderings but still feels empty. Your body moves because it must not because
you want it to.
Your bed is your “happy” place and your
duvet is “your sun” which keeps you warm and hidden. The sound of people and
life gives you anxiety. You just want to be alone.
This is how I felt when I was depressed.
Depression is when your spirit is low, your soul is empty and your body feels
so tired and heavy.
Day 11: Single but not forever
I stayed single until recently because I
wanted to meet someone “out the blue”. I believe if it’s meant to be it will
happen. However, I didn’t go out much so I didn’t really create an environment
for anything happen anyway. Being single had great moments like being able to
do what I want when I want, be just me and do all the things we often don’t
allow ourselves to do when we are in a relationship. But it wasn’t always
rainbows and unicorns. Often I would find myself feeling lonely, wishing I had
a “partner in crime” to do things together or come home to a smile and a kiss. I
met my boyfriend in an unlikely place and of course, I didn’t take note of him
at first but now, I come home to a smile and a kiss but sometimes I still need
my “single” space just to have “me” time and luckily for me, he gets me.
So, in closing, it’s been a tough time for
me and still is but I have managed to smile through the struggles, pray through
the pain (mostly) and move forward with faith because… like you…..I. AM.
ENOUGH.
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